Yup that’s right. I have a severe camera phobia. I am not sure when it happened but I have always been camera shy. The older I got the worse it became. I even have threatened to break someones camera that was determined to take my picture. That being said I decided to start a YouTube channel to document my renovations and eventual travels. I figured it would be a great way to let my family know what I am up to and also to make some new friends along the way.
It feels so odd to talk to the camera as if its a person. Worse yet, it is not just one well posed picture and is an actual video of me, warts and all. Just kidding no warts but I do have a lot more grey hair and wrinkles than I like to admit to. I am doing my best to try and get past the phobia and follow my dreams. I want to do the videos but just wish I could do them without videotaping myself. LOL. I had trouble with the first few videos as the software I was using to edit the video was making the sound off sync with the actual video but have since then found better software. If it works out I will purchase it but that doesn’t come cheap either. Now if I could just find a good actress to do the recording for me so I didn’t have to put my face in front of the camera I would be golden.
Why do it you ask? Well, I really want to document the process and blogging doesn’t really show you what I am doing. If facing my fears and documenting what I do helps even one person to start following their dreams it will have been worth the pain. It still takes me days to work up my nerve to make a video but when it is done I do feel a sense of accomplishment.
Facing ones fears can seem really hard so how can I really take off and not face my own? I can’t! So there will be videos of me and what I am doing on YouTube. They aren’t great and they aren’t professional but I am learning not only to face my fears but learning a whole new creative process along the way. As an artist this really appeals to me. The videos will get better as I go and in the end I know that my phobia of cameras will be faced if not conquered.
So what are your fears and what are you going to do to conquer them? If I can do this so can you! Be brave and do something that scares the shit out of you regularly. In that you will be moving forward and not be stuck with the same old mediocre life.
I would love to hear about the challenges you face. Your fears and your dreams.
My Youtube Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCDJx0qiOTXlwogad3rLwutQ